Music

Music is a big deal in my life. I love listening to it and just escaping. Sure that is how it is with everyone but it is so much more than that for me. When I listen to my favorite song I don't just hear the music, I can feel it. It brings me from where ever I am right then and puts me in the middle of this beautiful, serene, peaceful place that I am free to be me.
That is a big deal.

I dont think more than 2 people know the real true me. So many people I have to lie to, some the same, some know different lies. I am such a caring person about what others think that I have to hide who I am. And in those 3 minutes, listening to that one song that can make me feel bliss, I am finally free to think and be me. The real me.

I delve so deep into my writing trying to show others what I am feeling but I don't think anyone really sees what I am trying to say when I am writing. Sure they see what I am actually writing, as in the story itself. But no one sees what lies behind, the honest truth that I am trying to expose through my words.

But that is all fine, I don't know for sure if I really want people to know the real me. It scares me to open my self. But it hurts sometimes to hide me under a pile of lies.

That's why I have my music, not just to express myself but to find myself. Sometimes I am in hiding for so long, trying to hide the real me from everyone that I start to forget who I am. But music helps me to redefine me.

Music will forever be a huge part in my life. I will make sure that my children are exposed to music, all genres, because every type has different emotions hidden with in. It is important for people to discover themselves and I see a way of doing that is through music.

Some people want to blame music for the way kids misbehave, but it isn't the music, it is just them acting upon everything they keep hidden inside. Music is a cure, it is a safe haven, not the enemy.