Quotes

Ok so we all have to admit, at certain points in our life we look up those stupid pictures with the quotes on them trying desperately to find just one that has exactly what you are feeling on it. Unfortunately though, sometimes there isn't one. Sometimes what you are feeling is just so complex and unreal that you get this feeling that you are the only one in the whole world that has ever felt this. Sure we all know that it isn't possibly true, with billions and billions of people in the world, surely someone out there somewhere has felt this also. But in that moment, that is how you feel.

Sometimes it is amazing! Sometimes you are just so full of joy and life and everything seems beyond perfect. You cant help but think to yourself "Wow! I am the happiest person alive!" and it is fine that you can't find something to express it.

Or it can be a bad thing. You could be having a great day, talking to the woman you love when all of a sudden BAM! she tells you that you might be seeing less of her soon, and you are already seeing way too little of her as it is, you barely keep it together the weeks in between seeing her as it is and now those weeks could turn to months. You feel like everything you had planned in your head, everything you had hoped for, everything that had seem so perfect and innocent, all of a sudden just vanished into thin air. You love her so your soul feels crushed and you just want to find something somewhere to express how you feel.

Hours of relentless searching in books, in movies and online you can't find it and then you have this realization that maybe you really are the only one to have ever felt this. You have this feeling for a while just sitting there feeling empty inside, not sure what to do with yourself, then you think about it a little more and you realize that maybe you should try and write it out how you feel.

So you start to write. As you are writing you realize that no matter how many words you use, or no matter how long it becomes, there is just no saying what it is that you are feeling. So yes, people out there have felt your pain, the only reason you can't find it recorded anywhere is because It is just to difficult. You might have realized while reading this that this was my attempt at expressing how I felt. Just a bunch of sentences that kind of go together strewn together in this odd depressing romanticized post.

I am not sure exactly where I expected this post to go, but here is where it ends up, with me at the realization that no matter how badly I want to express this deep sorrow and longing, it is just not going to happen in the way that I planned. I'll listen to some sad music and write more on my story, which if you are at all interested in reading you can find here

Well I have run out of things to mindlessly type. Hope you all enjoy my nonsense!